And I miss my baby today.
I assumed when I first returned to work on August 2nd
that it would get easier with time to be away from E during the day, but it’s
getting harder. I do not want to leave
her or drop her off at the sitter’s house.
I want to put her down for naps, feed her breakfast and
lunch, give her boob instead of bottles, and experience everything she has to
offer everyday.
I long for the weekends.
On the weekends I get to pack my pump away and take care of my little
peanut. I get to change her diapers,
give her meals, and watch her play and explore.
I don’t have those luxuries
during the week.
In the morning it’s a race to get out the door on time, and
then when I pick her up I only have 2 hours until it’s time to start her
bedtime routine. I miss her Monday
through Friday. I miss her a lot. This is probably the main reason why I’m not
in a hurry to cut out her middle of the night feeding. It’s our time. It’s only five minutes, but it’s my five
minutes and I love them.
The harsh reality is that we are a two income family and I
knew this even before E. I just never
anticipated how difficult it would be to lose so much time with her. I would love to be able to stay home with
her. The Mister thinks that it’s healthy
for me to get out of the house and go to work.
That the adult interactions are healthy for both E and I and that I need
some time away to be me and not solely E’s mom.
I suppose he has a small point, but I still miss her none the less.
If you work has it gotten easier or harder since you started
back? Any words of wisdom for me?
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I'm not sure if it gets easier, I have only been back to work for a month. Although I will say that it has been nice to have big kid time and not experience the monotony of every day being the exact same. I think part-time would be perfect for me if it were possible- most of the time with my little man, but still a little big kid time too.
I do not envy you. Think kids do so much better then moms when time comes to go back to work... I find cupcakes help in these situations :)
Oh gosh! I went back to work in May and it's only been getting HARDER. Now she's starting to talk and I know that she says "Mama" and I'm not there. That's really tough.
She's on the brink of walking now too, and I'm sad to think that she'll finally achieve it and I won't be there to congratulate her.
I totally know how you feel! :o(
Adult interactions are good, I agree. But maybe you could at some point work only part time versus full time so you could have more time with that wonderful baby of yours.
I don't know if its hard or easy, but I can say I definitly miss adult interaction, and going to work and feeling like I accomplish something. I wish I was working more, but then I would miss Jakah. Its a tough cycle
I like working. I just think it's a very personal choice and my feelings change as she ages. There are ages and phases that I feel I miss her more and then ages/phases where I am happy to get back to work and drop her at the sitter. In general, I think it gets easier - - but that may not be the case for everyone.
This post and most of the comments make me feel like a bad mom. I like working, a lot. Of course I miss her all day long and rush home to her as soon as I can each day, but still - I find a lot of fulfillment in my job. And honestly, I think Lena finds a lot of fulfillment in daycare. She loves getting there everyday and has so many chances to learn and experience things that would not be possible if I stayed at home with her.
I agree with Megan that there are ages and phases that hard to be apart from her and there are times when it isn't as tough. It has gotten much easier for me since I started work again (last February) and I hope that will be the case for you if leaving your job isn't an option.
I feel the same way. Especially after the fabulous weekend we had together - it was hard to let him go this morning.
Not that it was easy when I first went back to work in June, but at that point he was still not doing much so I think I had an easier time. Now that he is moving around and exploring and learning so much every day I feel like I am missing out. I don't know that I could ever be a SAHM, but some days I really wish I didn't have to drop him off.
I don't know what you're going through, I'm a SAHM, but when I think about working or read about other moms working I don't know how I could handle it!
I know it really can be difficult. I went back to work when my first was born and I just wanted to stay home. I did like getting to go out for a little while, and I was able to go back part-time, which made it easier. I don't really know if it gets easier, but you do figure out schedules better and get into a routine. I am now working at home and it is so nice to be able to stay at home, but I do find it difficult to manage my time between working and being with my family. All of it is really an adjustment, whether you stay at home, work at home, or work outside the home. I just keep trying each day to do better for my little ones. Best of luck to you!
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Hi, Natalie~ Found your blog on the "Flock Together Tuesday" blog hop. Your husband is a very wise man :) You are fortunate to have the opportunity each day to dedicate time to yourself and contribute to your family in a very important way. Your little one is so blessed to have such a talented and caring mom.
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yes..I hear you. Good luck with the transition...nothing is ever really easy! am your new follower from the hop..pls follow back if you can. Happy New year!
Im also a working mom and honestly cant say it really ever gets easier. Just found your blog and look forward to following along
Our babies are very close in age. I too went back to work at the end of August and every day is so hard. I long for the weekends and vacations. I want to be there for him during everything. And I agree I want to put the darn pump away in a closet and NEVER ever bring it out. But bills need to be paid. This is my second and it still hasn't gotten any easier. But we do what we have to do and enjoy every moment with them. Love your blog!
when they hit two it gets easier. I had a happy, lovey, perfect little baby... then she got past one and the tude hit. The tantrums slowly started and some mornings I thought about throwing open the door in front of day care and telling her to roll when she hits the ground (kidding). There will always be a tug and days that are hard... but it's easier then... plus they are REALLY into friends at that point!